Maverick

Syonara

2007-04-29T15:31:00.000+08:00

Have jumped ship to http://shariffm.wordpress.com

How popular is kollywood?

2007-04-22T14:39:00.000+08:00

This ad speaks for itself.

2007-04-22T14:29:00.000+08:00

I really Love this ad

2007-04-21T11:02:00.000+08:00

Library no more?

2007-04-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

Today to my surprise the medicine library was packed. Surprised as the whole fac is over with exams and enjoying their new postings or holidays. On closer look I realised that they were mostly from science. I did not realise that medicine library is so...popular? Oh well! I cannot imagine what is going to happen once it's demolished in a month or two. Apparently all our books will be moved to the Science Library. So I guess there's going to be war brewing soon? Imagine two faculties...no four including Dentistry and Nursing together with Science and Medicine fighting over 3-4 floors of space. I figure pandemonium and some really unhappy faces.

I guess the key word here will be COEXISTENCE.

Without Wax
Shariff

Osler's musing

2007-04-16T10:55:00.000+08:00

" The practice of medicine is an art, not a trade; a calling, not a business; a calling in which your heart will be exercised equally with you head. Often, the best part of your work will have nothing to do with potions and powders, but with the exercise of an influence of the strong upon the weak. of the righteous upon the wicked, of the wise upon the foolish." - Sir William Osler

Inspiring words indeed.

Without wax
Shariff

Looking forward

2007-04-11T19:35:00.001+08:00

As I sit back listening to snow patrol this very moment, I've realised that it's been days since I've been so relaxed. No worries for now, no figuring out for the next CA or watever. This year began and ended. Just like that. Two years of medical school. It's like I've been through primary, secondary and JC in two years. Not much of a break. Every holiday was spent studying for the next exam. So much sacrifices had to be made. Many would say it would pay in the long run. But time lost is never made up. Whatever goes away never comes back. Oh well! It a week long break before E clinics and the 3rd year and I'm going to enjoy every moment of this weeks!

I really cannot wait for e clinics. It's going to be a big transition. Something different. Something we've never experianced before in its wholeness. Something that is atypical to anyone's experiance in a typical university life. Wearing office wear everyday, going to hospitals, understanding about IC, talking to people from all walks of life. And definitely going all over Singapore, the hospitals I mean. As I enter this phase in my life, I have to stop and think about what I said during my interviews.

Nope, I never said I was going to save the world, nor did I say that I was going to earn top dollars. Whenever I think about this, I remember that i quoted:

"We are here to add what we can to, not to get what we can from, Life. " -The Life of Sir William Osler, by Harvey Cushing

I think that may have impressed the interviewers abit. But then again, it was the one and only thing that I can remember from Sir William Osler's long list of quotes. I guess this is true for many people in many areas!

Without Wax
Shariff

Hiatus Hernia

2007-03-12T16:30:00.000+08:00

Wow! It's been 3 months since I last put in an entry. Hmm.... looks like I may have to do something about it. Maybe not. Exams came, left and exams are about to begin again. All you out there not in med fac, count yourself lucky... (maybe not lawyers)...cause seriously you guys get long holidays, while we get at best 2-3 weeks from now on. You have papers, research reports, lab reports, and so on but you don't have to have lessons at ungodly hours (like 5pm to 10Pm for E-med posting ala year 3, including weekends). The next academic year starts as soon as the previous ones end. Stressful but I like this life!! At least you're always kept busy with something.

Today is exactly 2 years since I enlisted in the army. All my batchmates have ORDed and I've been reflecting now about my interview for medicine. I once said that I want to make the world a better place, cure people this and that. The after 2 years, I've come to realise that that was a bunch of crap! Curing people is just one fifth of the story.

As someone once said sometime ago, "You cure a few, treat some but comfort all" That summarizes the story doesn't it. We cannot decide who dies and who lives. Some one up there does it. We try to prevent it but after all we are nothing but human. But the main idea is to comfort all. Reduce the pain. Help them in their passing and make it as painless as possible. Give a listening year always, as that is what will give us a clue to what is wrong. The emphasis on patient history is that great. Communication is vital. Be open and truthful. That is what we're taught to do.

With all the medical advances, we can only do so much because, the truth is, as we progress deeper and deeper towards a cure, like a bog pit, we just keep sinking deeper and deeper. We have indeed created "monsters" in our pursuit of treatment. Multi drug resistant strains of organisms were created due to the overexessive use of antibiotics. Common cold--> antibiotics? Where antibiotics should only be given for bacterial infections. That's why we have come up with restrictions to the use of antibiotics, but is it too little too late?

I guess its everything has consequences. Every action has an equal opposite reaction. Something that we should all keep in mind!

Without Wax
Shariff

Rain..rain ...rain

2006-12-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

It has been raining, raining, raining................and apparently it will be raining, raining, raining......
Apparently, next year it will be El Nino. So I guess it will be hot as hell...and people will say "Where is the rain?" Well guess what. Enjoy what you have now. Because when it goes away, you'll be yearning for it.

About to sell my soul..........

Without Wax
Shariff

Alone, Atone, Aclone

2006-12-20T19:09:00.000+08:00

Still studying for the Bacteriology CAs...hmm.. time in between CAs seems like time to be spent studying for the next CAs. But still, I'm still finding time to catch up with friends and family. Went for a gathering last week, another family gathering and such. People have started to forget what I look, or looked like. They alwasy give me a good stare, before,
"Oh it's you!!"
Well then who else?
"Hi meet me! I'm shariff clone. Shariff is not able to be here now. So I'm here. Guess what? I look just like him, talk like him and even study like him. Hmm.. sorry time for me to go and make another clone!"

Very soon, I'll have a clone army I guess. Da. Da. ta Da ta ta Da ta ta Da! (aka Starwars March of the clones). And then I'll rule the world.

Dream on indeed.

Without Wax
Shariff

Tazobactams

2006-12-13T21:14:00.000+08:00

Flash card, code blue!
Cardiac Arrest! Prepare defib!
Charging! 1000! Clear!
No pulse!
Charging! 2000! Clear!
No pulse!
Charging! 3000! Clear!
Got a pulse! Normal sinus rythm.

Time to revive this place again!
Been busy quite lately, am still busy now but it's raining now, and I can't go home, because I have to cross an overhead bridge, that is not sheltered. And there is lightning risk!

Exams were over, and more to come once school reopens. That sux but that's life. I've trying to catch up with life, but no mater what, I feel that I'm sinking deeper into a pothole called studies. Íve never studied this hard throughout my life. Though I do enjoy what I study, sometimes, it gets in over my head. I chose this life, so I should not complain.

The year is ending soon, but then it does not feel that way. Maybe it's because of the uni semestral timing. New year is in May-June and so on. Have to get used to it I guess, it's just gonna get worse!

For this christmas and new year, hope everyone gets what they wished. But becareful what you wish for!

Without Wax
Shariff

Of mooncakes and the moon

2006-10-08T03:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had agreat Mid autumn festival. Was my first. Haha lighting up a lantern, winning a mooncake eating competition and winning an ultraman lantern. Yes an ultraman lantern. It's still hanging by my window looking out for any danger.......oh what the heck. And on saturday had council gathering, the first in this year I reckon. All the guys are about to ORD sooner or later. And the rest are scattered everywhere. Kindda like the Spearman's scattergram. Really everywhere...

I was so near,
so near to fear,
The look on you eyes,
Not that nice.

And yet all I feel,
Is the foot of your heel,
So painful,
And disdainful.

I tried to make it right,
But you wanted a fight,
Try all I might,
I was in your sight,
And that was such a fright.....

Without wax
Shariff

Holiday Week

2006-09-25T15:46:00.000+08:00

Holiday week but ya holidays mean can study a bit more. Haha...And I've got to do my driving as well. Today Micheal Yoh stalled infront of me. Hahaha! Maybe that's because he saw me! Oh well!

Fasting has started. One good thing about this is that, other then the other good things, I don't have to worry about eating. Yes really! No worries about lunch. No worries about tea time. No snack time. No nuts time. So can do alot more stuff in between. Yay I guess! This week, I hope to do alot of stuff, but one week is never enough. School started a few weeks ago and whoosh 5 weeks has gone by in a blink of an eye. Very soon CAs, end of sem, and then 2nd Pros! Wow and I've 3 yes 3!! CAs this year. Hmm......... I should really do something productive. Oh well, I'm producing a blog entry. That count's as productive I guess. And now I've got to end it!

Without Wax
Shariff

Campaign in bain

2006-09-15T20:26:00.000+08:00

Haha campaigning has begun and it is getting quite serious in effect. So many people competing this year all of a sudden. That it includes me too. That aside, today, I nearly started a fire!

Yes it was all my fault. I was playing with the lighter when the papers near me in a bag on the table caught fire. And in school too...haha...and that incident taught us firstly, we should not play with fire and secondly, the whole sim city gang were not born to be firemen. All of us were just watching everything burn. Yes. We were not meant to be firemen! But we did manage to contain the fire thanks to Surya's bottle of water and some quick thinking. IF not the sprinkler's would have turned on and oh boy! That would indeed have been a sight!

Oh and HAPPY BIRHTDAY AARON!!

Without Wax
Shariff

Roses

2006-09-13T16:27:00.000+08:00

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I felt lost,
Til I found you!

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Life is tough
But I have you!

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Shingles is painful.
And so are you!

Roses are red
Violets are blue,
You looked at me,
I looked at you!

Haha, all this during the lecture on varicella-zoster viruses. Zoster produces rose like belts. That was enough to spark of this literary schist. Hmm..... Having a nice break in my favourite sem room 7.

Hmm...I'm such a joker. But is my life a joke? Reminded my of a movie that involved a clown whose life was so sad, like he was terminal kindda sad, and yet he had to make others laugh. The sardonic irony of life. We have mutiple personalites. We take on every one of them as and when the need arises. I'm like that too.

Without Wax
Shariff

Without Wax

and somemore

2006-09-07T04:55:00.000+08:00

Little Red Rain Drop

2006-09-07T04:53:00.000+08:00

Band of brothers

2006-09-07T04:51:00.000+08:00

DND

2006-09-07T04:39:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday was GREAT!!!!!!!!!!! Best Dressed DND Table! Woohoo!!!!

Yup it was fun! Quan Yao, Mel and me were red indians for the first time in our lives. I'm indian but not red..hahaha... It was cool. I went to the hotel wearing slippers..Meritus Mandarin..wow. Well that's because that is the best kind of food wear for what I was wearing, unless if I had gone barefoot, but that would be of great inconveniance. Oh and we had a horse... yup a HORSE. A fully ridable, humpable (yup it got humped) horse. This is one of those DND that I will really miss...

Without Wax
Shariff

Schoolloging

2006-08-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

Wow...it's 7pm and I'm still in school. Can't go home because it is raining and sick of reading up already. So I've decided to blog. School is really getting on all of us (I assume alot). There's alot of things to do and very little time. Now I really wished I lived in Pluto. 1 year = many many more days than just 365 puny earth days. Hmm...still raining.. .what shall I do? Okay Dnd is on Saturday and I'm suppose to be wearing a red indian dress...hmm....maybe I should just paint myself red and walk off. Hey I'm red and I'm indian. Haha!

No I shall not do that. Me shall just go get a costume and me shall wear it okay? Okay. That sounds indian, but not red enough haha.... Oh man.... I've finally started driving, and it was fun. Really fun. As in I was so relaxed while steering that even my instructor was surprised. All that Datona practice in the past together with need for speed came true. It was truly like driving in a computer. Ya it's auto and its easy but it was fun and all worth it. I'm going to get a car......but not so soon. Maybe if i carjack....hmm... who has a nice looking car? Watch out ...cos..hehe....

Without Wax
Shariff

Life

2006-08-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

What do I want to do with my life now? Hmm..... I guess this will be a good time for a reflection. Start of year 2 means start of another year of my medical journey and another year down towards graduation. How do I want this year to be? I guess this is the year for me to take opportunities. I felt that in year one I did not push myself or take things that came my way. I was very reluctant and held myself back. Why? Because of the expectations. I did not know what to expect. Why? Because I had no proper guidance into my med school transition. I was mostly on my own with sim and my councillor. If not for them, i guess I would not have found my footing to start on.

However year 2 is definitely going to be different. I know it. I started it right anyway with medicamp and organising it. I got to know alot about the medical fraternity from the year 1s to the year 5s. It was definitely an eye opener. getting to know where I was heading and setting the waypoints. Of course there is the academic area to worry about. Oh well, studying is just part of the medical course anyway. So much so that we have stopped calling our books books and started giving them names.. "papa robbins, mama robbins, baby robbins, katzung, snell, baby moore big moore."haha..and there are alot more in that list and alot more to come I guess.

So, books, friends, foe and family...heere comes Shariff

Without Wax
Shariff

Rationality

2006-08-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

Why do people not think and act rationally? Why do we let our feelings get the better of us and skew our perspectives in life? Today, a good friend of mine left a suicide note. Fortunately we found her in time before anything untowardly happened. Same situation happened not long ago with another friend of mine. Haha, I don't think I'm the link as they are two independent events. Life is so precious. Our mothers endeavored nine monts (and 7 days or more) to give birth to our lives, and many more years to nurture us. We decide to end it in an instant, without stopping to think about the more important things in life.

Are bfs and gfs so important? Someone we met incidentally becomes more important than our parents, siblings and friends. Someone who is not related to us becomes the decider of our fate. I have not loved or been loved by that someone but I will respect my parents and my sister's will more than anyone else in the world. Why so? Because I recognize the amount of sweat, blood and tears they've shed to bring me up in this world, and giving me every opportunity to excel. They're happiness is my happiness. And so on for all the other emotions. Well that is the very essence of me!

Without Wax
Shariff

Soul Searching

2006-07-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

Going mad for the past few days. Haha really having a bash in school with float and all. Actually it is not the building of the float, but the extreme eye power that is involved in looking at the freshmen working hard too get things done. They're really doing a good job so far. And they are one enthusiastic lot. During medicamp and after medicamp. Hope both the M&Ns show the same enthusiasm towards their academics later. (M&N= Medicine and Nursing)

"I've never been the one making decisions for you. I make my own decisions. You make yours. Don't make your problems mine unless I don't mind. If I have a solution, I'll tell you. But if I don't, don't bug me. I think you are just growing into my nerves. It's time we broke up."

This was a conversation that I heard when I was in bus 74. The girlfriend was practically stinging her bf. And guess what? This was all about what the bf wanted for dinner later. HAHAHAH!!! Breaking up over a disagreement about dinner. How cheap is that? I guess BGR are not what they used to be in the past. Maybe in the future, couple will break up because the guy does not use the same toothbrush as the girl.

Without Wax
Shariff

Walk and Walk

2006-07-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

Posing

2006-07-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

For the Freshmen

2006-07-22T17:30:00.000+08:00

Medicamp ended, but everything else has just begun. Had so much fun as 1. IC 2. Pseudo OGL and 3. a camper. Everything went smoothly albeit with a few hiccups here and there. Something just didn't go according to plan but no plan is perfect ya. I believe that this camp has been a bonding session for both m1s and m2s especialy. Especially within the FOC. Most memorable moments were 1. the last night and day. Why because the FOC were finally together for 1 night to really talk and play. Then MC, LK, SY, JL and yours truly went to see sunrise.

There was so much happening during medicamp that no this blog will not be enough to tell the whole story.

Without Wax
Shariff

Med Medness2 with skeletons

2006-07-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

Med school Madness

2006-07-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

Look up Push up

2006-07-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

Yay!! got new pictures up into my background..haha and they really summarise what my life has been like since I was in Jc...but i missed out one pic of 03S61...oops...will be up soon..not to worry.

Okay last week was OGL camp, it was okay, but could have been better. Can't wait for medicamp which is 2 weeks away or so. Played floorball today and I've got knocked all over again. I remembered playing floorball for the first time in SA for PE..sadness, I slipped over Joanna stick and sprained my ankle...and nothing much has changed..hehe I still get whacked around and hurt. Just that it's not as painful anymore.

Now something to ponder about.

As I was looking through my cousin's school diary, one of her school values was Godliness. Okay. How do you inculcate Godliness? Lesson 1 for the day : Plagues. Lesson 2: Miracles. Lesson 3: Pardon and Lesson 4: Devastation? How do you teach someone to by Godly. True enough as the proverb goes "To err is human but to forgive is Divine" But that is but of course a proverb. So that makes my wonder...Godliness? Maybe something like passion would be more fit but I'm not involved in that school at all.. DISCLAIMER: I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST THAT SCHOOL. THESE ARE JUST MY VIEWS...hope I don't get sued for this...I've not mentioned the shcool name though.... maybe I'm safe....haha even when blogging have to be on the safe side man!

ouch

2006-06-15T13:07:00.000+08:00

Numbness and tingling down my lateral 2 digits. A cause for concern or should I just wait for muscle wasting before I go down to the doc for a case of Carpel Tunnel Syndrome. Haha... okay although I know that the pain may be just due to me falling down on my wrist I think it should be nothing at best.

Okay, I'm currently living a very boring life. There's really nothing going on. I've got to start doing something before school starts in August. When are we going to go log shopping again? Haiz...and OGL camp is 13 days away. And we've not bought much. So much for that! Maybe I should apply to do something..but what?

Manager?

2006-06-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

Suntec after a long day

2006-06-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

Book of Days

2006-05-30T00:47:00.000+08:00

Yay! I've bought my books already!! So prepared for year 2 but don't really want to start that soon anyway...haha...but time waites for no one and time flies when we wonder what lies ahead!

I've really been busy for the past few days. Orientation. Orientation planning is as always time consuming. Last week, I was in Suntec from 1400 Hrs to 2300Hrs. Well it was not all work. Played this irritatingly decieving game in the arcade that really took away my money. But it made me realise something. Okay the machine is the kind where you can win a prize. Basically you are suppose to align the bricks such that they don't fall off and reach the top most point. There are two stages. Once it reaches this zone called a minor prize, it pauses and you are suppose to choose whether you want to stop or continue. The minor prize was menthos sweets. So on I went to try for the major prize. But no matte how agonizingly close to winning I was, I could never win. So was it me? Therefore I waited and watched others play. And guess what, out of 15, no one went for the minor prize! Everyone gunned for the Mp3 player, and Samsung HP. Haha!!! That's what you call a carrot complex. Always gun for the biggest prize and forget the smaller ones although they are of the same value. Won't tell how much I lost in that dumb machine.

I'm feeling sleepy now as it is 1 am......

Without Wax
Shariff

Of Chronomics and Haptics

2006-05-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

Last week was Professional Developement and Communications week..PDCP in short. Intially I thought it was boring and for nothing..worse still was the exam at the end of it on friday. But I would say it was fun. Really got to know why people do stuff and that really got me interested. I'm going to sit down infront of PS one day and see if people really behave as such. Haha.. Chronemics, Haptics, paralinguistics, iconics, dress...then there's still Cooley, Mead and I. Goffman and of course not forgetting Street and many others. Who are these people? Well they are guys who sat infront of malls and shopping arcades of their times and observed people...And after that, they decided to come up with theories....hmm...what a life..and their names live on in immortality.

Yesterday, after the exam, Sam and Co. decided to go watch the Da Vinci Code. So we to Harbourfront MRT. Shariff told Sam to hurry up or we'll miss the train. But that fell on deaf ears. So as the doors were closing, Sam rushed in ...and he got stuck...between the doors with his bag. Hahahahah!!!!! I should have taken a photo!! Damn was too slow to react. Luckily the doors opened slightly and allowed him to come in. That was a sight you don't get to see everyday. I guess the bunch of girls reacted more than us guys......Girls are more expressive than guys..guys are usually just racaous and raunchy...(was an opinion said during PDCP tutorials).....Sam is okay I guess but does he have NEL-o-phobia now? Hmm........a life changing event usually creates a personality change.. I guess I'll have to look out for that haha!!!

Without Wax
Shariff

Dilemma again!

2006-05-12T17:55:00.000+08:00

Was reading BBC online when I came across two distinct articles but both regarding something of an issue. One was about prisoners on hunger strike being force- fed through nasogastric tubes in Guantanamo. The other was about a debate in the Lords over assisted death (euthanasia). As a medical student, these two events stir up some confusion within me.

In Guantanamo, prisoners were forced fed by medical officers of the US forces. Now the international convention is that when a prisoner or someone goes on a hunger strike, the doctor is only there to advice him against it and inform the risk of doing such things. In other words, the doctor is not suppose to forcefully end the hunger- strike and if the person dies or goes into coma, then it is not the doctor's fault.

In the Lords, the debate is about helping terminal patients "die with dignity"versus improving palliative care so as to ensure their passing eventually. "Do no harm" So is assisting terminal patients to die a case of harm or just simply hastening the process.

Personally, I feel that helping a person die is equal to killing him. Even if your're dying, fight on till the end. Then people will say this person died fighting and will respect him/her. But of course I cannot imagine the agony and pain a person goes through but I will not help him die.

Pure gold

2006-05-08T18:09:00.000+08:00

Throughout the years, men have strived to yield pure gold. But pure gold is too soft for any use. It requires impurities and alloys to be of any practical use. Likewise purity is impractical in life. We have to be evil once in a while. Hahah...what words of wisedom.

Oo Draconian Devil
Oh Lame Saint!
(may 15)

Without Wax
Shariff

Sim city and Shariff's office

2006-05-08T01:26:00.000+08:00

Lecturse @ 8am

2006-05-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

The Secret Garden?

2006-05-08T01:24:00.000+08:00

Horsing around?

2006-05-08T01:23:00.000+08:00

Michelangelo's notebook

2006-05-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

Alot has happened over the days. Exam results, Careers Talk and Moving on to year 2.

Big event of the week: 1st Professional M.B.B.S Examinations results.
I passed. Not really the wohoo kind of great but decent enough. So I can finally start thinking about M2 life now. From M1 to M2...feels like I've crossed a milestone. Maybe because I've survived it. Finally living out my dream. Fact of the matter is that I thought I can never make it to med school. Coming from a neighbourhood school, average decent grades. So I thought the next best thing was in life science. But What a stroke of luck! God works wonders in his own ways. It is truly He who knows our innermost thoughts. Hmmm...time to start buying books. A trip to Yunan is on the charts.

As it was in the beginning, it will now and ever shall be.........

Without Wax
Shariff

test

2006-04-28T01:13:00.000+08:00

test

hmm..

2006-04-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

My blogs for the past few days have not been published. Why? I thought I published them. Is there someone lurking around deleting my blog enteries? But why? Or did I not click publish? I thought I did.......

Okay nevermind. For now, got alot of things running across my mind and therefore have to go catch them before they drive me crazy. (BritneY Spears: You drive me crazy....I must really be off my mind to quote her)

Fright night

2006-04-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

Today was fun. Really fun. Went to Tang's but realised I should be at tangling shopping centre. So I started to walk. Walk. walk, and walked. Finally got there. Then I started to look for Mac's and realised there wasn't any (that was the meeting place). Called Blanche and Alvin Tan. Was told that it was at Tanglin Mall....So walked a bit more and finally reached destination. Okay doesn't sound fun.

But later on we went down to Botanical gardens. A really interesting place because I haven't been there. Why? Because I'm not a nature lover and...ya I'm not into plants and scenery. So walked around the whole place, scarring people (Serene especially). A good place for fright night indeed. That's when the heavens decided it was enough and it started to rain...no POUR!!! Was very heavy.

But day hasn't ended. Lian Kiat, Jun Liang and yours truly decided to go down to the very familar army market. Nostalgic place. Spent alot there, when I should not have. Looked for bargain hunting and all. Then I realised......

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shariff

RAin

2006-04-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

It's raining...that's an understatement... It's POURING. And at this time of the year. Is it just me or is the weather system screwing up. It's hot out in the morning and then it rains..no pours in the evening. How to make plans in this kind of system?! Oh well! Nobody can control the weather right? Right!Currently I'm not doing anything. I'm vegetating, rotting and all I've done is a few days of relief and some medicamp work. I guess it's time to say aye to go for clinical attachment. Make use of the time. See people being opened up in the morning and go for lunch. And then come back home to dream about people being opened up. That's the lif. But not paid for all that!! So I guess I have to look for a REAL job that PAYS. Any one got lobang? Please help dear old shariff if you owe me anything. I know alot of people still owe me cups of coffee. Grrr!! Not bad! You all can pay for my coffee fees next sem! Haha! The coffee addict has spoken. I like my coffee black ya!Without WaxMaverick

Rain

2006-04-24T17:38:00.002+08:00

It's raining...that's an understatement... It's POURING. And at this time of the year. Is it just me or is the weather system screwing up. It's hot out in the morning and then it rains..no pours in the evening. How to make plans in this kind of system?! Oh well! Nobody can control the weather right? Right!

Currently I'm not doing anything. I'm vegetating, rotting and all I've done is a few days of relief and some medicamp work. I guess it's time to say aye to go for clinical attachment. Make use of the time. See people being opened up in the morning and go for lunch. And then come back home to dream about people being opened up. That's the lif. But not paid for all that!! So I guess I have to look for a REAL job that PAYS. Any one got lobang? Please help dear old shariff if you owe me anything. I know alot of people still owe me cups of coffee. Grrr!! Not bad! You all can pay for my coffee fees next sem! Haha! The coffee addict has spoken. I like my coffee black ya!

Without Wax
Maverick

Rain

2006-04-24T17:38:00.001+08:00

It's raining...that's an understatement... It's POURING. And at this time of the year. Is it just me or is the weather system screwing up. It's hot out in the morning and then it rains..no pours in the evening. How to make plans in this kind of system?! Oh well! Nobody can control the weather right? Right!

Currently I'm not doing anything. I'm vegetating, rotting and all I've done is a few days of relief and some medicamp work. I guess it's time to say aye to go for clinical attachment. Make use of the time. See people being opened up in the morning and go for lunch. And then come back home to dream about people being opened up. That's the lif. But not paid for all that!! So I guess I have to look for a REAL job that PAYS. Any one got lobang? Please help dear old shariff if you owe me anything. I know alot of people still owe me cups of coffee. Grrr!! Not bad! You all can pay for my coffee fees next sem! Haha! The coffee addict has spoken. I like my coffee black ya!

Without Wax
Maverick

Rain

2006-04-24T17:38:00.000+08:00

It's raining...that's an understatement... It's POURING. And at this time of the year. Is it just me or is the weather system screwing up. It's hot out in the morning and then it rains..no pours in the evening. How to make plans in this kind of system?! Oh well! Nobody can control the weather right? Right!

Currently I'm not doing anything. I'm vegetating, rotting and all I've done is a few days of relief and some medicamp work. I guess it's time to say aye to go for clinical attachment. Make use of the time. See people being opened up in the morning and go for lunch. And then come back home to dream about people being opened up. That's the lif. But not paid for all that!! So I guess I have to look for a REAL job that PAYS. Any one got lobang? Please help dear old shariff if you owe me anything. I know alot of people still owe me cups of coffee. Grrr!! Not bad! You all can pay for my coffee fees next sem! Haha! The coffee addict has spoken. I like my coffee black ya!

Without Wax
Maverick

LPS

2006-04-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

Okay viva list is out and good thing is that I'm not in any of them. So can finally start to finalize holiday plans..not going overseas or anything but doing something useful and fruitful. I've started my teaching stint in primary school. Really cannot imagine me with primary kids right. But they are quite okay once they get to know you (but always be have to be on your toes or else all hell will break loose).

God is a DJ

2006-04-12T09:51:00.000+08:00

Imagine if heaven is like a big club ie club momo, indochine wateva. And God was the Deejay (ever heard of the song God is a DJ by Madonna?) And then St. Peter was a the bouncer standing at the pearly gates (ever came across a bouncer with wings and a halo...this is just imagination..no I've not seen an angel before...I'm still alive). Hmmm....weird dream. But, this theme came out in a movie before right? I can't remember it but it was by Chris Rock. He died prematurely (as in before his time was up) and therefore alot of things happened along the way. I had that exact same dream. Hmm.......I wonder why?

Am I suppose to take it in a metaphysical sense or was it just a case of REM sleep gone awry. Should I listen to the religious part or the medical part? Hmmm...if former, what was that dream suppose to mean. I guess should just stick to the medical part.

"When you get to heaven
St. peter's gonna say
How'd you get to heaven?
How'd you find your way?
I replied with a little bit of humor!
Find my way with a helicopter!
Living in a live full of mud and danger!"--some crappy route march song

I guess the helicopter crashed and everyone died..........

Without Wax
Shariff

Where is your stop?

2006-04-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

Hi! Welcome aboard the Life Express! Where do you wish to get off?
Ahmm... I don't know...do I have to get of? Can I not just stay with the rest of them?
Sir do you or do you not know your own life? Don't you have a destination in mind?
Not really..I was just following the crowd. Then I got lost in it.
Where are you from?
No idea.
Where do you wish to go?
No idea.
Do you hope to meet someone?
Do I have to do this?
Do you wish to be someone or be someplace?
I just want to wander.
Well actually the only people who wander or ghosts and spirits! Are you one?
No for good heavens. No! I am a human just like anybody else!
What makes you think you are one? Why are you not a giraffe?
Because I walk on two legs and I can talk to you!
Apes and bears can do that. Parrots can talk if you taught them to!
But..but.. I'm different.
You are on the outside. But on the inside you are nothing different. An animal only things about today and now. Whether it gets food or not. Whether it is safe or not. Whether it has to reproduce or not. Its only about now. Not about tomorrow, the day after, or two years from now. ...but...why are you doing this to me?
I'm not doing anything. You're doing it to yourself. Look at yourself. You claimed your're a wanderer? Let me tell you something. Not all Wanderers are lost. Your're lost. You do not know where your're from and where you will be!
True.....but I don't know what to do..can you help me?
I cannot decide your future. I've already decided mine. I know where I'm heading towards. I have a destination. I may reach there tomorrow, the day after or two years from now. But in the end I'll still reach it. Thats' what matters. And that's what makes me different from animals.

Without Wax
Maverick

Constancy

2006-04-06T20:26:00.001+08:00

A man once said to a boy :"Nothing is a constant but change! Everything around us changes. Days go and nights come. The nights go yonder for daylight to ponder. The sun replaces the moon and the moon replaces the sun. Joyful spring follows a bitter winter but winter returns with a vengence as soon as serene autumn leaves us. Everything changes. People are different everyday. We learn something new each day we study or work. We wear different clothes everyday. We have moody days and we have joyful ones. We are not the same everyday"

The boy laughed and replied:"But no matter what, you're the same everyday. Your still a man. You have the genes. Your genes do not change. If not who you are would right?

"My dear child, who told you that you do not change. You do not look like who you were when you were a toddler. No you don't! You grow and grow and mature everyday. Tomorrow your body will get old and you will feel the burden of living. And yet you say I'm still a man? Yes I am one but an old one. You, my boy, will someday become a young strong man. You see. Everything changes. Sands do not shift overnight. But they do...shift!"

Maverick's own ramblings..the boy and the man do not exist...actually they do...boys and men exist but this boy and this old man are figments of my imaginations...haha..

Without Wax
Maverick

Constancy

2006-04-06T20:26:00.000+08:00

First ever

2006-03-26T19:21:00.001+08:00

This is the first ever time that I'm writing a blog in school...seminar room. Hahaha...but this is the first ever time staying for every in school. This will be the first time ever staying in a hall away from home...well second time away from home..if NS counts. I guys more first ever to come anyway..oh ya first ever time I'm mugging so hard like really really really hard for an exam. It's like Alevels plus O levels combined..but the exams are only for three days. Haha..talk about ironies. Okay gotta go back..PS if you called me and I didn't pick up...sorry but I've no bloody reception in this building..MD5!! I want my room back mofos!!

Without wax
Shariff

First ever

2006-03-26T19:21:00.000+08:00

It will be...soon

2006-03-20T21:57:00.000+08:00

I've got my eyes on you. Why is it that I can't see you eye to eye? Why is it that my I don't know what I was talking about whenever I talk to you? A funny feeling in my heart and stomach. What is it? I can't describe. Maybe it's just my lactose intolerance acting up, because you like ice cream, and yet worse still, you share it with me! Why can't I just say no? Haha... I've never felt like this before. Why now? Is it what I think it is? No. It can't be. We have nothing in common. We've just met each other and yet why is it that I feel as if I've known you forever?

Who are you? Why are you doing this to me? I want to be normal around you and yet I become a fool, a clown and a buffon! Haha... That's all that I can say. I want to tell you all this but...I still want to a good friend........

Without Wax
Shariff

Prozac nation

2006-03-17T22:06:00.001+08:00

More and more people are going away...for a short time. All my usual groupies are going overseas for training and stuff, or are already away. And I have to mug for exams. Funny that I still have to blog, but oh well, laptop+internet= blog time!! Today really SUCKED!! REALLY SUCKED!! And I really mean it. Firstly the M5s (year 5s) took over ther room that I have been using for a week and cleaned it up. Secondly I had to be in the hot weather to study. Thirdly some idiotic company siphoned off my money because I had done a credit purchase online and didn't desubscribe to them. Forthly I realised that I bought a bus pass instead of a hybrid one and when I went to the station my card had $0 on the dot exactly. So I had to fish out whatever coins I had (luckily I had enough..always prepared haha!!) Not really a good day eh?

But what to do! Have to take everything with a positive outlook! Learn all the lessons from my mistakes. 1. Don't purchase online without reading the fine print. 2. Camp in the room before the M5s enter. 3. Always check what you are buying and don't ASSUME! But still I don't feel bad about it. I've realised having a positive outlook makes one a happier person! Don't worry because worrying and complaining does nothing! Find solutions! There are many around! It's just a matter about whether you would want to stick your head out and look for them.

Okay...praying hard to HALL!!!

Without Wax
Shariff

Prozac nation

2006-03-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

Today

2006-03-11T23:31:00.001+08:00

Today is a special day..maybe not special in that sense of memorable but it is one of those days that can never slip out of your mind. I enlisted exactly a year ago from today. Haha 1 year has already past just like that. My friends are already talking about ORD and stuff... haha... mine's like in 2014...that's about the time that cars should start flying and humans can live in peace together. Like that's going to happen anytime in this century.

But yet no matter mundane, like mine, or exciting life was, everyone has to remember that we all went through the greatest adventure in life, and yet we can't remember a single thing that had happened. From a single cell to a complex organism that is able to think and more importantly question! Many things can go wrong and yet everything seems to fall in place like a well rehearsed theaterical piece. Thing about it....The human fetus first starts receiving sensory inputs from the external environment by 24 weeks or slightly earlier. Opening its eyes, hearing funny noises, feeling hot and cold, not yet smelling but definitely tasting. But can you remember anything? Defenitely nothing at all!

Things do go wrong though. And when they do, there are usually mitigating factors like teratogens and germline mosaicism and such! Sometimes a lady does not know she's pregnant and therefore may drink, smoke.......basically because let's say you get pregnant on day 15 of your menstural cycle, (day 14 is ovulation day) the first menstruation occurs on the 28th day or around 2 weeks from that. But no menses occurs but you thing the cycle screwed up and wait for the next one..that is 4 weeks from that. That is when the fetus is about 6-8 weeks. This is a period of time known as embryogenesis, the most important phase in the 1st trimester. Anything going wrong here will manifest as a physical disorder e.g. Fetal alcohol sydrome...

So lesson to learn..take care of your bodies, especially the ladies. Your body is your temple..don't harm it. Take care of it and it takes care of you!!

Without Wax
Shariff

Marathon

2006-03-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

Going back to mugger mode in 2 days time. Hmm..fun didn't last that long but was well worth it. Finished watching season 1 and 2 of House over 2 days. I believe that House is really a great show. I mean there are alot of shows about doctors, hospital and clinical medicine. General Hospital (it has nothing to do with the hospital...just about people working there) Dr Becker (the life of a sardonic GP) Scrubs (The funny and exagerated side of medicine) and of course there is Grey's Anatomy ( which probably named after Gray, though they sound the same. And by the way it's one of those shows that does focus more on office politics like doctors giving each other gnorrhoea and syphillis). House is the best in my view! Why? Simply because it stays true to its nature. The diseases are real, procedures are real. Maybe not how he seems to deject taking patient history although we're told that patient history is the penultimate quest in giving a proper diagnosis. Of course people lie! That's true!

Without wax
Shariff

:(

2006-03-08T15:51:00.000+08:00

Finally time for a breather. CA's over but in three weeks time.. !st PROS!!! Haiz when will it ever end. But still gonna take a small break before going back to mugging part 2. Friday still got to go back to school for review. Hmm... Alot of things have happened of late. Believe me! ALOT of things. Some things are better kept under wraps. Blogs aren't safe nowadays. Not that I'm planning a hit on a government building or something of that nature. I'ld be stepping on people shoes if I did so!

CAs weren't good...why did the lab tech love the bell so much! why so strict with the 30 seconds. Hahaha....the movement today was funny to observe. Very mechanical when people moved from station to station. No time to look at anything but infront!

Okay....sleep time

Without wax

shariff

Desperation

2006-02-21T04:52:00.000+08:00

Another one .5 weeks left for CAs and a month before the 1st Pros.....haiz time is running out for me. Damn! Why does the pile of work increase everytime I clear something? Difficult to remeber things nowadays. What to do?? Must put on my EXAM cap!!!

Ahhh!!

2006-02-13T04:15:00.000+08:00

Okay in three weeks time is CA2... time really flies. It feels like school started yesterday... and one year is going to end so soon. And then first pros in another 6 weeks time. Then a long holiday. Can't wait for that but before bliss there's always hell. Oh well! The life of a medical student... never easy going...always mugging...no not mugging...really mugging very hard.

One year ago, I was working in a place that I never expected to be employed by. And then a short stint in national service until SISPEC. And then all that came to an abrupt end one day. Was so unexpected!! I became Out of Course and received my disruption letter (LMDS) on the same day. How coincidental! As I was walking back to my bunk with a OOC form (I had a shoulder injury), my Sect Comm said hey you've disrupted...haha and I was thinking where would I move on from then..... and then in 2 days time, after enjoying a clerk's life, I ran as fast as I could back home......

And so... here I am..once again...

Without Wax
Maverick

Maverick?

2006-01-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone --"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams-Green Day"

How true.... sometimes I feel so lonely that I feel like I'm the only one in this world. Where is everybody else? Why does everyone see true me? Am I invisible? Don't I have emotions? Why did I every help you? For you to hurt me later? Why do you ignore me? Why don't you try to understand me? You didn't mean what you said? Then why say it? You think I'm cold and heartless? Violent? Did I kill someone, murder? I don't deserve to be where I am? So you think I was just lucky eh? I'm stiff? You could have done it better? They why didn't you do it? I don't care? I can't be trusted? I don't deserve your respect? Do you think I give a damn about your respect? Can I be more sensitive? I am stuck up? I don't know how to cry? I don't give a shit about people? I don't keep my promises? I don't value friends? Do you know how much pain I'm in? My loved ones in hospital? Do you know how much I'm tearing inside? Clinging on to every last piece togther? Holding on to whatever that's left of me? Do you know I'll give my life for you even if your're my worst nightmare? Have said no to you when you wanted, no needed help? Didn't I cover your back? Did you think I was a rock, not a human?

Confessions of a Broken Heart...in need of emotional and spiritual enlightenment....God where are you? I need you at this very right moment. I can't take it anymore. This loneliness is killing me. I'm disappearing into the background. I'm no one. But I want to be someone. I've no drive to go on. But I need to. I've made given up so much...I can't give up now. I need to move on forward. I am standing on a precipice. I feel the ground beneath me melting away. I have no one to talk to but You. Where are the people that I so much trusted? I can't hold back my tears.

...Without Wax...
Maverick
.....forever...........

A happy sad person?

2006-01-25T20:31:00.001+08:00

Today I learnt the most important lesson in my life...patient history. A patient's history can tell alot...if you ask the right questions that is. The funny thing is that when you ask a patient to tell it all, you're actually invading his/ her private space. So you've got to tread carefully. Ask politely, listen intently coz' it will give us vital clues as to what symptoms are present and would lead to a very good prognosis.

The funny thing is the patient my group so today was a terminally ill patient..who looked nothing like what a terminally ill patient should look like. So perceptions change. She was a 55 year old lady who came in with a fractured femur, ie the long bon in the thigh, after a dizzy spell, slip and fall (or before the slip and fall). She also fractured here wrist as well. So after one of my groupmates wrote down the history, our group had a discussion with our tutor. And what we realised was that she developed a tumor in her right lung that metastasized to her brain and hip. The tumor caused hairline cracks in her femur and it broke up. So though her life could be prolonged by chemo and radio theraphy, there is only so much that medicine can do.. The sad thing is that she has a sec2 and a sec 3 kid. Imagine what they will have to go through...... I really feel for them.....

Without Wax
Maverick

Screwed UP

2006-01-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

I guess
That this is where we've come to
If you don't want to
You don't have to
Believe mè

I screwed the msn spaces (or it screwed me up vis-a-vis) so came back here haha.. anyway i took a damn long time to come up with the background so might as well keep this.

Okay working hard is in..slacking out..but I guess a few minutes of slackness constitutes for nothing much. I finally went to gave blood after a long break....haha and guess what..kenna rejected for reasons that I should have known. Went to donate blood coz blood bank running out of blood and so was to enthusiastic to give blood. But because of dear mister dengue and the plasma transfusion I had not longer that 2 months ago, I was rejected..but still got the complimentary milo and biscuits.

Finished renal physiology...boy is that a the mother of all chapters..haha. So many things to comprehend...in the words of Prof Kaur.."many many"... haha no pun intended. But not really that bad i guess... really something interesting. How your body responds to you destroying to self-destruct and all. Next week I'm am going to watch a surgery realtime and that too during Chinese New Year...haha..what am I implying. Doctors work 24/7 7 days a week. Holidays for us doesn't mean diseases have holidays.

Talking about diseases, yesterday, watched a video about the ebola virus. It's a type of death that is painful to the very end....trust me. Firstly, the virus attacks all your blood immune cells. then it attacks the mast cells and macrophages in the connective tissue of organs. Then as those cells die, like dying heros, they release histamine and cytokines. This makes your capillary walls very permeable even to red blood cells. Blood leakes out everywhere. Mass internal haemorrhage. Blood leaks out from every orifice in your body, ear, eyes, mouth, nose..everywhere. The liver shuts down due to necrosis followed the kidneys, heart and lungs. Blood leaks into your stomach, intestines and you vomit blood.

Finally Death......
Fatal 100%..i.e. you get it..you die.
And we thought Bird flu was bad!

Microkillers..assasins of the future?

Without Wax
Maverick.

I useless

2005-12-29T00:21:00.000+08:00

http://spaces.msn.com/members/boobleshariff/

Well, I was by your side!

2005-12-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

"I guess
This is where we've come to
If you don't want to
Then you don't have to believe me
But I
Won't be there when you go down
Just so you know now
You're on your own now
Believe me"

This is from Mike Shinoda's Fort Minor. Trust me! It's great go buy it. Don't download it. Support IP! Hahaha...this is like the pot calling the kettle black! But seriously...go buy it online or from any music shops. It's great! Something different from what I thought it would be like.

Merry Xmas

2005-12-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

Papayas

2005-12-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

Hahah..learnt something new today. Apparently papayas can increase breast size. It has an active compound known as phytoestrogen that is similar to oestrogen produced by the ovarian cells. So those earning for bigger breast..EAT PAPAYAs (disclaimer: this blog author will play no part in whatever action that you henceforth take...haha!) But really not too much or else you get diarrhoea.

Anyway my group's research question didn't win any prize although it was much better than the papaya group but it's okay. Everything happens for a reason. If we had just put a bit more positivity and effort, maybe we could have pulled throught. But as I said again there's always something to learn anyway. Oh one more thing is that chilli actually increases your metabolic rate to such an extent that you may lose weight. But you have to make sure that you can take in that much chilli or you'll be breating fire from the front and back...if you know what I mean!

Some of the OCS guys are commissioned as officers tomorrow...so my advanced congrats to all my future officers of the SAF as of tomorrow. I know that I can never go through that experiance although I'll become (hopefully) an officer in the support arms.....but not a commissioned one. And that too will happen 7 years later (maybe 6.5 if I'm good).

Lately, I've not been feeling happy about myself...........dunnow why....wait maybe I do know why....but what the heck..school has officially ended for the semester TODAY... while everyone else is at least having holidays for namesake...sorry ET..but you shouldn't join too many CCAs.....don't be another Vicky! Heck.. I've yet to join a proper CCA. I don't wish to be bogged down by them I guess...but I should get one........Consideration!

Without Wax
Shariff

About breast cancer

2005-12-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

Okok.......school has still not ended all thanks to FRS. I'm starting to hate it...especially the stats part of it. I've realised that if you don't practice starts continually, you will forget it. Especially biostats....but managed to spend a whole night pondering over it with alot of help from eileen. I hope she didn't mind :P ....

So what has my group come up with. Firstly there is a slight chance of getting breast cancer by wearing a bra. Why is this so? This is because, current theory suggests that bras impede the flow of lymph via lymph vessels into lymph nodules. This system clears toxins, bacteria and stuff like that. So if this results in the accumalation of toxins that ultimately induces cancer. However this is only in theory.

There are other more important factors though...like havin BRCA1, BRCA2 gene. How do you know whether you have this gene? If either your grandmother, mother or sister had breast cancer, you will have it. There is a high incidence in this case. Other minor factor includes height, obesity and diet....Funny thing is about height. Apparently height causes in increase in downward pull of breast but please this is really nonsensical.

Risks of breast cancer is very high in people who had 1. first menstrual period before the age of 9 2. Last menstrual period after the age of 50 (longer menarche period where more oestrogen is produced. Oestrogen has been known to induce breast cancer as well...like testosterones in the weakening of the immune system.) 3. Yet to bear a child until 30. 4. Never had breastfed.

So from this, it can be induced that the incidences of breast cancer will rise as people get married later and have childbirth even later and a poor diet/ lifestyle. But breast cancer can be detected early. I mean everyone knows the mammogram advertisement. Oh and mammogram.......nevermind...don't want to deter ppl about it.

Without Wax
Shariff

DOTA and counter strike

2005-12-04T04:41:00.000+08:00

A very long long day... started from 2pm and ended @ 4 am... and i'm still not asleep yet. Damn I'm beat! Researching in the earlier part of the day, watching a movie with council, having dinner and plaing LAN until 330 in the morning with Law, moots and ET!!! Hahaha.. thankfully ET got a bus back to Jurong haha!!! Didn't know some...no actually most of the night rider services were closed due to the standard chartered marathon. So the 4 of us assumed tt there would be a right home.. It wasn't a problem for mootz, law and me cus we lived close to each other. But for ET thankfully there was a Nite Owl service by SBS back to Jurong. What a stroke of luck!!! Lesson learnt...1. don't play DOTA and counterstirke until 3 2. Make sure there is a ride back home.......

Now back to research topic....WEARING BRAS CAN CAUSE BREAST CANCER.
How true is this...well to a small extent... but wearing bras excelerates the chances of getting breast cancer.... in addition with other factros involved...i'll talk more about this later.. too tired and eyes are getting really droopy!!

Without Wax
Shariff

30 mins

2005-11-27T11:06:00.000+08:00

Okay taking a break now......a break that never ended since it began...

Last week was a sucky downcasted week!!!! Fever...flu...jabs...infusion...IV.....trainee nurses? Oh welll.... must be down on my luck

CAs next week but I still not even half way there yet... think I'm pretty much screwed but thats okay considering the fact that incapacitated for a whole week. Damn those bugs!!! I hate it when your body just decides to fall through when you make up your mind to get down to business and just in the mood to do so. Oh well.... yesterday soccer was great...meeting with old friends and halving a nice chat..playing...dining.. Dec 10 must remember....but dunno whether will be able to make it or not coz I have stuff to do in school! But must try!!!

Without Wax
Shariff

Hi My name is....

2005-11-21T03:40:00.000+08:00

Am I enjoying life rite now?
A:......not really
What is my hobby?
A:Studying..what else
Do you do anything else when ur free?
A:I study....
Do you have a life?
A: What's a life?

Hahah.. really I should do something else other than just studying I guess. I really have to figure out what I'm going to do during semestral break. Finally a 3 week hiatus. But in three months...tt's a different story. CA2 and then the First Professional M.B.B.S exams. Fail this and its really going to be a tough 3 month break after which will be supplementary papers. So I'ld rather get it over and done with and enjoy my 4 month break..probably flying off to somewhere far away from here....need that break.

I'm planning too far a ahead but its a comforting feeling to think far ahead. Actually by evolution, humans have developed to think far ahead and to have an ulterior sense to acutally less negatively of pending disasters.... gave us an edge over the Neandearthal man...hope i spelt it rite!!! Doing the pelvis and perineum this week and sex reproduction organs....not really alot to see but alot to imagine...those who know will know....those who don't..try not to imagine...

1 week before CAs
Preparation:Digestion not done
Pelvis and perinuem not done
3/4 of biochem left
DIE!!!!!
Without Wax
Shariff

And they last forever

2005-11-11T20:09:00.000+08:00

Ahh!! the Memories

2005-11-11T20:07:00.000+08:00

A WALK IN THE RAIN

2005-11-09T19:58:00.000+08:00

In life, I would stumble and fall And often lose my balance, Then someone would come And offer a hand to straighten my way! Often times help would arrive When the way, I thought, was so bleak – Just a word or two Then I would be off To follow the path that I had set! It seems that in life Our paths are brighter And even a little lighter With a smile from a stranger!

Is there a gathering on the 10th December...anyone??

mirchi

2005-10-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

Playhouse was fun!!!!! Haha! I went in halfway through when the original father pulled out but it was really cool! Gotto know ppl and really let my hair down..

Story: Indian girl meets Chinese guy. Indian girl falls in love with chinese guy....and the rest can be figured out quite easily...dances...coconut trees, rocks, Indian family, Chinese mother.....COWS!!! I just love the COWS.. they are actual ppl but their costumes were really good very well done!!

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Shariff

Stars

2005-10-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

"Here come's the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in pain again
Becoming who we are

As my memory rests
Never forgets what I Lost"

Look carefully. The signs are clear. We won't be here in twenty year's time.. trust me....haha just joking. All the talk about armageddon and the end of the world! My thoughts on it....if it comes, just accept it. When it comes...it comes hard i guess!!

The Day Before Yesterday

2005-10-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

Looks like I've gotta hit the books sooner or later..sooner the better I figure... studying just got much harder..whoever said M1 was plain sailing, although it's a much easier life as compared to the later years but I hope I can reach my clinical years soon. It's like how a child would yearn to be an adult and how an adult would miss his/ her childhood years.

Oh well! Life in med school is really tough..but when the going gets tough, the tough get going!!! Everyday is a new day. I get to learn something really new but remembering the facts...that's another story. I like physio and anat ( especially Prof Ling) but biochem....I don't really see how much of it will be used clinically. I mean it's really very detailed...the different pathways, enzymes, substrates, favouring conditions. Why can't it be merged with physio so that we can see the clinical relevance of it? Maybe biochem should be scaled down slightly... but I am not the best person to comment on it anyway!!! Haha!! Year 1 and I'm starting to complain already.. Oh well!!

My future plans from now.....

ENJOY MY BOOKS, LECTURES, PROFESSORS, TUTORIALS, ANATOMY, BIOCHEMISTRY, PHYSIOLOGY, PBL, MUGGIN, MUGGIN AND MORE MUGGIN!!!!

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Shariff

Attack of the 2 nm monster

2005-10-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

Hahah...it's been an enduring week. Long days..plus fasting..plus workload..taking a break for today....have to have it once in a while... I believe next week will be worse... another biochem FA, another CVS FA. I just hope CVS FA will be like the one we had for blood...sit in the LT and just nod off for a while.. haha...

Blood Prac was fun though!!!! I was a guinea pig...trying all the stuff before others did...poking myself, bleeding nonstop... Realized that my platelet count is quite low...coz my bleeding time is quite long, longer than the avergage timing... 3min and 30 secs...that quite a time... Actually it's quite true though.. it does take some time for me to stop bleeding... I think it's time to have a change in diet..multivitaming here I come..

Oh and 'Sys Di! Sys di! Sys di!"..how to forget that... that's the only thing I remeber from that lecture...and Prof Ling is great for anat prac...hahaha.... but I miss Prof Wong...very encouraging.. always has something postive to say.."Don't worry so much about it!'"Not to worry!"

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Shariff

Hiatus

2005-09-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

The big toe is also called the hallucis..haha yup hullucination.. coz its big.. dunno why. Oh and the thumb is called the pollicis--> pollicy to show importance. haha looks like my latin improves with a greater knowledge of the human anatomy!!!

Nothing much happened in school today...infact its a relaxed day... ended in about 3 hours but really slacked at home. Have alot to do for anat!! Damn!!! Oh and I'm out of printing paper!!!! How my life revolves around printing paper!! never did buy them for a whole year and now....becomes a requirement!!!

All my juniors and younger cousins are all having exams..Don't give up hope!!! Even if prelims was screwed..there's always the A's or O's to count on...too tired to continue...bye

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Shariff

When the cows Moo

2005-09-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

Another day in medical school sloathes by.. haha is there such a word...maybe.. don't bother checking the dictionary... it probably isn't. Wat did I learn today? ATP coupling and Transamination..hmm...interesting... well not really that but it was...interesting nonetheless! I think I had the weirdest dream on my way back home...I feel asleep in the train.... haha

Well the dream went like this: The train stopped halfway between Potong Pasir and Serangoon aka Woodleigh.. which was the old Biddadari Cemetry. The doors opened and a crowd of people just rushed into the train.. @ 1pm.... But the only problem was that they were all wearing white and red.....wierd...well I thought they were nationalistic or something and that someone was celebrating same thing to bring out the sense of belonging or something of that sort. But then the train didn't move after that...and it remained stationary. Some young noisy kid sat beside me and kept similing at me... He was so thin...such that if I had palpated him...I would have only felt his bones... so I got up and wanted to walk to the front of the coach when the boy started to pull my leg..............Psyche!!!! Get it?! Pull my leg!! Haha...

Oh well

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Shariff

Crunch time

2005-09-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

Okay..time's really running fast... seems like i've just entered medical soon and poof...semester break and poof! FAs and Poof! it'll be the CA's soon.. not far from now..only 1 month or so I figure...really time flies. Well atleast there will be a term break but still CAs are a big thing..and it also looks like I've neglected my blog!! Haha same old lazy me!!

Okay..semestral break was lacklustre I guess...got a flu bug but other than that didn't really study much..... On the flip side, had a good time out with Moots, Law, ET and dan!!! It's good to spend time with people that I haven't seen for a long while! Oh well!! Btw, the Myth is really not what I expected....i mean it was funny and comical and oh the costumes and sets were beautiful and elaborate!!! I loved that but the ending..well not really what someone would expect..I'm not really a critic but go watch the movie and you will understand.

It's back to another hectic week in YONG LOO LIN SCHOOL OF MEDICINE!!!!!!

The Spear

2005-09-21T22:23:00.000+08:00

We look before and after
And pine for what is not:
Our sincerest laughter
With some pain is fraught;
Our sweetest songs are those that tell of saddest thought.

Give not way to solitariness and idleness...
Sperate Miseri;
Cavete Faelices
(If unhappy, have hope;
If happy be cautious.)

Wake me Up when Sept Ends

2005-09-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

One week break!!!Yay!!! Finally a breather! Damn!! Skool just started and there is a break. But nooné's complainin( I wonder who would?--oh i think i noe who! haha Won't tell u!!!!) Oh well!

Life in NUS is really pretty good. I mean true enough muggin has become part and parcel of our lives but still there time to do many other things. It's all about choices that we make. Nobody does that for us now..or atleast for me. One good thing about my parents is that they let me make my own decisions without any interference. I don't have a curfew....can even come back @ 4 am and there won't be any complains or nagging. No influence on choices...i get to do what i want to do... which is good...and no control over expenses.... but maybe it's just because they trust me and I would do nothing to betray that trust. But, as what I was saying,or typing, life's all about choices that we make. Who we are today may not be who we will be tomorrow! So make a wise choice...that's today's message of the day..month or something like dat!!

Well I noe that I've not been talking to alot of people lately..... it's just me. I mean I'm still pondering over the incident at the chalet. I mean it's just that Í said that day wasn't meant to be said as such....was just damn tired after not sleeping for night and doing stuff... but that's no excuse....that's why I'm pretty much learning how to "shut up".. haha as what one had said...."Shariff you should learn how to shut up! Why do you appologise after killing someone!"....Hey but I didn''t kill anyone ya...it was meant to be a joke!

You know sometimes you try to do something to help someone or compliment someone because noe he/ she has the potential but in the end u just get forgotten...I guess that is life...sometimes.....nevermind....

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Shariff

Wishdom

2005-09-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

Genuine Peace will never be attained with the elimination of chaos, confusion and conflict. In fact all three are essential to the continuance of life. Without chaos, there is no open space for future possibilities. Without confusion, old ideas and ways of thinking stick around well beyond their time. And without conflict, ideas and approaches fail to reach their full potential, never having been sharpened in the intense conversation of critical assessment. Peace of the sort that brings wholeness, harmony and health to our lives only happens when chaos, confusion, and conflict are included and transcended.

Nonviolence means avoiding not only external physical violence but also internal violence of spirit. You not only refuse to shoot a man, but you refuse to hate him. – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Who Are You?

2005-09-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

So i've not been blogging for some time...what's new? It's just that I'm too lazy to do so or to busy to do so... well that's been the case lately. Work is starting to get onto me know. But I kindda like the pace so far. I don't know why!!! But what the heck.. once you start, you can't stop..so LET'S GET IT STARTED IN HERE!!!

Katrina....took away many lives, homes, friends, family, loved ones, dreams, hopes, aspirations, inspiration..even humanity. The ugly side of humanity reared it's head..looting..stealing and taking away something that was someone's initially. If law and order breaks down... people will do anything that they wanted, infact anything desirable will become uninhibited. Why? Why do people not forget a social nigata!!! Why?

oh well

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Shariff

Tronic

2005-08-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

WHERE DID EVERYBODY GO?!!!!

Haha....looks like it's been awhile since I've talked to my old friends... either in NS or now overseas somewhere....damn i miss them and the times I had with them. Life now sux really!!! Really a mugger friendly environment engulfes me....I don't really adore this situation with open arms. I used to be someone else. Maybe it's time I take up a sub-club sport. Maybe i should just join cricket....maybe something else. Maybe not at all...arghh!!!! I hate this mugger tronic life.. time to do something about it!!!! Before it's too late.. aka back to titantron world!!!!!

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Shariff

Cantus Iterus

2005-08-16T18:24:00.000+08:00

Ahhh...Lippincott is highly unrecommended!! Why did my seniors recommend it in the 1st place when the profs are not?! Damn!! And I intended to study from that book....time to change books..or do I actually need to buy any....and what do I do with the book I have...probably give it to my juniors next year(hopefully!!).

Went back to my sec school today and realised that everything has changed. The Principal, VP, HODs and even the canteen stalls. The school compound itself has undergone an amazing transformation I guess! I don't recognise that place anymore. The older building created a nostalgic feeling atleast!! Damn!!! Why did they have to introduce all that benches? argh!!!!

Oh well!!!

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Shariff

Overdrive

2005-08-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

Hahaha...looks like this blog is also going down the drain.....dunno why I can never maintain my blogs....been busy lately..well not really busy. It's just that I'm too lazy to log on and type!!! Hahah... that's just shariff being...Shariff I guess!

Recently, I've been thinking about the ethereal question of what am I doing with my life! Well I came from an average Pri school with below average PSLE scores and an average Secondary school. JC will never be average...coz I had the time of my life there! But suddenly I find myself starring at the skies again..wondering.....damn...why didn't I bring an umbrella again...It's pouring. Haha..but really... I've been looking for inspiration up there. I've always inspired to be a person who is selfless in being, who outs others before himself, who does but not orders. But I'm only human. And like all other human beings, I have feelings too. Just that they don't get respected by others.

Sometimes... u just don't know how words can hurt you! Sometimes you just let loose without knowing that the person on the receiving end has just been insulted or provoked @. I'm guilty of that too! But as I said I'm only human! I treat my friends and family with respect. I will give my life if I have to....but I'm only human.......

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Shariff

Happy B'day

2005-08-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!

And so we are 40 years in the making. A long road it may seem to many but comparatively short as related with countries slightly bigger than a dot in the world map. Is 40 years or relatively gracious progress good enough to say that we're successful? Definitely not I would say (Butlerian Accent). However we've tremendous progress by forging a nation that generally considers herself as one..in many ways..Unity in Diversity!!! Now where did I hear this term? As much as I wanted to be the author of this term....I didn't come up with it...was probably from Pre- U sem or something. Anyway it's something that we as Singaporeans can be proud of.

So what did the Maverick do for National Day?

1. Tied up national flag
2. Repainted room.
3. Helped RC with things.
4. Disturbed Sister

And that was it...Oh My...a rather boring day indeed.. oh and I came across this thing too.....

MAHABOOB
M	is for	Mysterious
A	is for	Amazing
H	is for	Hardworking
A	is for	Articulate
B	is for	Bashful
O	is for	Optimistic
O	is for	Outgoing
B	is for	Brilliant

What Does Your Name Mean?

Hahaha....I dun't know how but its'prettey accurate!!!

Someday I wish you would see right through me.
Someday I wish you would see the true me.
Someday....someday....someday..........

the Maverick...

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Shariff

Ahuh!

2005-07-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since my last entry! How time flies! Nah it's just that I was damn lazy to put up any entries, me being me typically! So what has the maverick doing for the past few days.......
1. Looking for tuition assignments! Need the money seriously!
2. Bought a new laptop, which I named it as Lappie, to replace old notebook (aka Notie??)
3. Admiring my newly shelved room that is now even more spacious. (Can play indoor badmintion...KIDDING).
4. Planning where to put what in my newly shelved room!
5. Looking for a cheap router....a hassle to switch connection between my com and lappie!!!!(Lazy Shariff Syndrome!)

I think tt's about all the highlights that I can think about..oh!oh! and...
6. Gonna try out contact lenses...it's do or die time!!!

haha!!! dunno why but I don't really dare to put them on. Call me a sissy or watever but it's just that I find the idea of something foreign in the eyeball awkward!!! Ahuh!

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Shariff

MAVERICK

2005-07-28T11:19:00.000+08:00

MAVERICK

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A Day Lost

2005-07-26T11:05:00.000+08:00

To sum up the day: Intro Lecutre/Subway(Yakun kaya)/0.5 way to Clark Quay/ Bras Basah Complex ( Yunan)/ Ultimate Frisbee/ Homeward Bound....can it be much simpler than that. No elaboration required.

Today I meet an uncle of mine who happans to be a cardioloigst. And he told me that he'll be conducting lecture in Medfac......interesting. I just don't want to be under him @ all. Anyway I don't think I'll be under him anyway. Haha..probably for the M2/3 tracks. So he won't be a problem.

Joke of the day: " Tomorrow is my wedding. I'm only inviting a few guests. Try to bring a few gifts. If possible, please bring me a wife!" Hahah LOL!!!!!

Thought of the day: "It's the thought that counts" (ULTRA LAME!!!!)

Tired...sleepy....Maverick out.

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Shariff

Parkinson

2005-07-24T11:13:00.000+08:00

Rapture was just great...awesome..superb...2 thumbs up...a job well done indeed. All the costumes, backdrops and choreography was just wonderful. After that had a nice chat with Mootz and Luke. It was good to catch up on each others' lives. Oh well............

Oh and of course Watermelon is 95% done...left with putting on the aluminium pieces and getting the opening and closing of the slice. That will be done in due course I hope. Maybe abit of "Parkinson's Law" may apply. So what is Parkinson's Law. It is:
‘WORK EXPANDS SO AS TO FILL THE TIME AVAILABLE FoR ITS COMPLETION’

Who said this:
Prof. Cyril Northcote Parkinson

Hahaha! I wonder why he calls it a law and not observation or rule, or something of that sort. A law is something that has to be obeyed. But do we have to really obey Parkinson's law? His law is based on observation. I dislike to use the word "law" on such observations. I mean why is it a law? Is it something we have to concede to? Isn't it possible for someone to challenge it and propose a new rule( Probably someone like Parkinson who has alot of time in their hands to come up with such laws)? Same arguments go for Newton'e Law of Gravitiy. Why is it a law and not a rule? Sometimes people just go on without wondering about things as such. People like me! Coz you know why? It really doesn't MATTER TO US!

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Shariff

Choices

2005-07-22T11:39:00.000+08:00

NO ONE IS HERE BY CHANCE!

Every Saint would have heard this quite often. How true! Everyone has a choice to do whatever he/ she wants to. But we have to bear full responsibility on our part to any outcome whatsoever. For example, guys may choose not to serve NS but they will have to forget about being S'pore citizens if they choose to leave the country. Though a tough one, it's still a choice.

But who or what influences our choices? Parents? Friends? Loved ones? Teachers? Dogs??? Cats???? Ghosts????? Everyone (and everything?) has an influence over the way we make decisions. But it is a penultimate fact we have to make our own decisions, neither cats nor dogs. So we have to be the judge over facts and decide what's in our best interests. There is no point in being a fence-sitter. Coz u go nowhere! That is a piece of advice to one and all.................

Wow why am i being such a sage today? I don't really know. Probably coz I have nothing really interesting to talk about. Watermelon's coming along fine. Mojo is coming along fine. Rapture is coming along fine. Boobs is coming along fine!! Oh and i found out that there is a formula to show girls are EVIL! Some of you may have realised it a LONG TIME AGO!
So here it is:

We all know that Girls take up our time and Money

1. Girls= Money * Time

We also know that Time is Money

2. Time= Money

Equating 1 and 2 we get

3. Girls = MONEY * MONEY= MONEY^2

We also know that money is the root of all evil

4. MONEY = (EVIL)^1/2

From 3 and 4

Girls = [(EVIL)^1/2)]^2= EVIL

CONCLUSION: GIRLS ARE EVIL

Just kidding lah!

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Shariff

Move It!!!

2005-07-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

Watermelon's nearly a watermelon! So technical break for raggers 2morrow! Coz we're working ahead of time! Great! ( Probably the " I like to move it, move ite" effect..). Anyway mojo is meeting up for lunch. *Yay*!! Okay..it's probably the effect of going back to campus everyday! Changed my opening tune as well. It's really a fun song. I mean it's better the "The Book is on the Table!" although they follow the same beats.

Ahh.....too tired to continue..

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Shariff

Littany

2005-07-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

Weather was really good today. Not really sunny, cool..very conducive for sleeping. But wasn't able to sleep very long coz had a deep commitment to the lovely big WATERMELON for flag n rag. Anyway the watermelon has really taken shape today. From pieces to a piece. Alot of things done. And I think can be fininshed in 2 or three days if we keep up the speed. WEll Done ppl!

Have you ever considered about lame movie endings? Like Spiderman 1 and The War of the Worlds? I mean the storyline goes so smoothly and suddenly the movie ends, just like that. Not longer nor shotter. Take for example spiderman. The movie was good with a tied in ending but the irking part was when the narration goes: " Who am I? I'm Spiderman1" Like hello...i thought we knew that like @ the beginning of the movie. It's like writing a letter with the beginning " How are you? I'm fine!" Its like duh! rite...asking a question and answering it yourself! War of the Worlds......movie was fine but ending should really have changed. I've read the book and though it had the same form of ending, it was a bit more exciting. In the movie...it was so abrupt. I mean the aliens just died. Just like dat. No questions asked. Wasn't it dumb of the aliens not to recce the planet first? Like find out whether they can tolerate our atmosphere? So though i enjoyed the story...the movie is a waste of my money. Not worth paying to see aliens dying after killing alot of humans because they couldn't withstand our atmosphere. LAME

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Shariff

Rag'n'Flag

2005-07-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

Rag and Flag.......

Got a brief briefing (???) about Rag and flag. And prep starts 2morrow. But tt's nothing really much to talk about there...more to come i'm sure. But have realised 2 things about my self:

1) I can really act dumb when I'm in shock

Eg :
Raj dropped me off @ Serangoon Mrt but leaves without letting me take my bag. I get stunned and freeze...jaws wide open. Then i see and old man smiling at me. Then I walked up to the traffic light. Then I walked back. Then I just stood there for awhile with no reaction. The old man was there all the time. Then I start laughing....(probably went mad)

2) I really miss my old Friends

They come up with the lamest of jokes. Sometimes it really makes me cringe @ their lameness but all in the name of good fun.

Eg:
What did one wall say to another? Let's meet @ the corner
What do u call a fly without wings? A walk
What is the diff bt a fly and a mosquito? A mosquito can fly but a fly cannot mosquito
Why did the tomato blush? Coz it saw the salad dressing
Why can't skeletons play church music? Coz they have no organs
Why do u call seagulls as such? Coz if they flew over the bay they'ld be called bagels
& many more

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Shariff